Tuesday, November 29, 2005

oh and one last thing...

Is anyone sad that Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey are splitting? I'm serious. I'm not a huge follower of the two, but I don't care usually who it is, it saddens me when married couples divorce.

I guess I bring this up because the papers are all over it and it was almost as if they just couldn't wait so they could write about it and splash it all over the papers and shove it down our throat. I know it's so typical in the "Hollywood, Fame, Stardome" world but still I find it sad..truly sad...not pathetic sad...but heart hurting sad.

I happen to love the whole concept, idea, union of marriage. I take it very seriously. I never joke about the D word nor about splitting up. I admit I can be a bratty wife sometimes but... BUT... I love my husband and am committed for life! And committed to making myself a better wife for him each day.

I'm not trying to be high and mighty but I say all that because that is why I get so sad even when celebreties split because marriage is such a beautiful thing to me and I'm very sad that they lost that beautiful thing--if some ever had it?

I just wanna yell "FIGHT!!!" fight for your marriage. Everything in this world is against it. You have to be the one to fight for it. The road is NOT always easy, feelings are NOT enough...you have to choose to love your spouse even if you don't feel like it, you have to commit to it.... you have to remind yourself of all the reasons you married this person sometimes when it gets hard. Touch and caress when your angry (it will melt your hard heart for sure). The rough times will come and go and when you stand on the other side of a trying time victorious...your love for you spouse will be more than you've ever known. I know that because I experienced it.

In my marriage I've found that as each year goes by I see my husband anew. I love him more and I come to know how wonderful he is even more. He is an OUTSTANDING man!!! And yes we've had rough times. I have not been the easiesy woman to live with. But we're both committed we took our vows seriously and we truck on hand in hand. We're in it together.

I pray that for every marriage.

just lookin at blogs

I really like searching for blogs. Picking a word and searching for the word amongst all the blogs. I run across some interesting sites. What's so fun is that I get a peek into some strangers life, smile, laugh, and even sometimes cry and then I'm onto the next.

It really has become a mini hobby that I enjoy. (note here that I don't search or look at nasty ones...I avoid them like the plague)

I usually don't bookmark them unless they're very interesting or on a subject I'm curious on. So then I wonder will I ever see that blog again and what if I crossed paths with that person someday....weird. I doubt I'd remember them but still. I get a kick out of thinking of those random, cosmic things...all the people in the earth and what they're doing at this very moment.

But I don't really believe any of it's random or cosmic...but very vast and too big to wrap my mind around when I try and contemplate it.

So just read about a couple who have moved to Baltimore and saw their honeymoon pics (nothing indecent) and enjoyed reading about their life at this moment in time.

Just yesterday I read about a family that now lives in Maine but one year ago just lived a few streets away from me....weird huh?

It's kind of fun.

Buuurrrrr....

It's getting colder. We got snow yesterday...although it was just a tiny bit that lasted for about 10 minutes....still WE GOT SNOW!!! It's something, more than nothing, it was white and I saw it!!!

Right now it's just rainy and windy and cold. I had to be in and out of it today and although it was a bit amusing it was cold, cold, cold. As an Oregonian though (a true Oregonian) I do love the rain. I enjoy the storms and sitting on the couch with something hot to drink and listening to the wind and rain pound the house.

I do like our seasons. After the long and wet rainy season, the cold gray winter, I can't wait for blue sky. The wait makes it all that more exciting. My mood lifts and I'm ready to be outdoors. Spring is beautiful here in Oregon. When I attended OSU spring was such a highly anticipated time.

AFter months of gray, trekking to class in the rain day after day, enduring countless days of soggy socks (one year I did have the shoes people wear for the rain...but only one year)...the blue sky peeks through the clouds and it's like a switch goes on and everyone's out either playing frisbee, studying on the grass in the MU, or rollerblading or whatever it didn't matter...you just had to be outside doing something.

But the fall was so beautiful there too. There are so many diciduous (sp?) trees there and shades of orange, red, yellow paint the whole town. It wasn't until college that I appreciated the seasons and realized what they have to offer and realized the gift of living in Oregon.

Of course not all Oregonians would agree...I have a cousin who hates the rain. Why she is still living in the Willamette Valley I don't know. Over east it's not as bad but I bet someday she'll be living that way or in Alaska...she loves the snow. She was the first to call me the other day when our first snow visited us.

So anyway as I type the bottom of my jeans are wet from being out and about in the weather today, my feet are cold, and I have a beanie stocking cap on my head because our house is always so cold. And I'm loving every minute of it.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Hmmmm

Just read a sad website about a little girl in my home state that died of leukemia at the end of October. As I read through the site I was struck by the transformation that took place in this little girl as well as the short amount of time that elapsed from the time they found out to the time she passed away.

I realized they just found out in March and she's already gone. Imagine just going to a routine check up for your 3 year old and your life as you know it changes in an instant. And just a short time later she's gone.

As I write this both of my little ones are clamoring for my attention....

Bye bye I have some important little ones to attend to. You just never know when you won't have that time anymore.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Being A Gummer Aint So Bad...

Well my sis-in-law decided to just go ahead and show this dog as her last weekend of showing together...and what do you know...The dog stinkin won!! The dog is now a champ. It only needed one more win and it got it. My SIL bawled and was so excited.

I was so happy for her and her dog. So the judge did notice the teeth and even felt up there and she just smiled and she won!!!

So... looks like it wasn't gloom and doom like we thought it was. Praise God!

~Kelli.... trust in the Lord with all your heart...and lean not on your own understanding. You rock Lord!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Heart Burn and a Sad Event

Went to dinner with a friend tonight. A friend I've had since 1st grade. We met at her place of employment which happens to be a sports bar and grill. I comsumed a Thai Chicken Salad that I choked on numerous times because it was so dang spicy. At one point I was coughing almost uncontrollably and my eyes were flooded with tears. I now have acid reflux. I NEVER get acid reflux but tonight I do. Which that somewhat concerns me. I don't want this to be the beginning of a lifelong relationship with Tums.

On a sadder note. My sis-in-law/super close buddy/friend/pal called me and told me that her vet pulled her dogs two front teeth without asking. This is so sad because this dog is a show dog. You don't pull show dogs teeth. What's also sad is he (the dog) wasn't finished yet (not a champion) but they were working on it. She has put so much time. money, and energy into this passion of hers with a dedication to do things right and ethically. This dog was her first show dog that a friend of hers sold to her to help get her started. He is such a beauty and so so sweet. They even had a show this coming weekend. I repeat... HAD!

It astounds me. It shocks me. I don't understand why a vet thinks it has the right to pull your dogs teeth without asking. This vet knows my sis-in-law. She brings her dogs in there all the time for this and that, as well as her cats, and her bunny. Even if it wasn't a show dog you don't pull any dogs teeth without the owners permission provided the owner is a good and caring owner.

The teeth were not rotting or even yellow. The were a tad loose...so she yanked them. The dogs career is now over...done! Just like that by one vet who stepped a little outside her authority and made a stupid choice.

I felt really horrible for my sis and she cried and cried all day. I'm thankful her hope is in the Lord and I'm at peace knowing she has Him to cling to during this time. Why would He allow this? "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path" Above all God is good and we can trust Him with everything.

Sweeping Away The Clutter

Oh my! Tonight I got some things done and I feel sooo much better. I seem to thrive when I have a deadline and it seems attainable to complete my task but knowing that I may cut it close is a good thing. .... Also known as procrastination for me personally.

So tonight I came home to a house that seriously looked like a tornado touched down. Praise God that my husband had no school tonight. He got the kids in gear to clean up their toys, I went to town on the dishes and laundry. The house was picked up in less then 30 minutes.

I promptly set to work at making homemade cranberry sauce for my son's thanksgiving party tomorrow. Thank you Lord. It was fun and now I know how to make it. I greatly prefer it over the canned stuff. Didn't even like the canned stuff to begin with.

That was over and done with in a jiffy and I went to town preparing my meeting for work tomorrow. That was over in minutes and whoosh I sped to the couch to watch my fave show The Biggest Loser.

It was fun...Then I watched another fave show The Amazing Race. Then I paid all my bills and balanced my checkbook and cleaned off my desk and got things organized for tomorrow's day.

I can see clearly now the rain is gone. I can something all the obstacles in my way... la la la

Sunday, November 20, 2005

...Well this weekend is coming to a close. Just 2 more hours left. A tad less. Sitting here at my computer desk (my new desk that is) feeling my eyes get heavier and heavier and my extremities get colder and colder. I think I may need to go to the doc to check on circulation problems. I have lots of tingling as well in my legs. It's from too much sitting staring at this screen.

Oh well. I'll go I suppose...one of these days. What's on my mind? My mind for the last week has felt bogggled. I have to resist though and keep on going because I have a tendency for laziness and giving up. Or something like that. So I have more on my plate than usual and just want to throw in the towell. But I'm fighting it. I don't enjoy being a wuss...and I'm not going to be one.

So I'm tired. I think I'll go watch the boob toob for a bit and then go to bed.

Hi sis!

Monday, November 14, 2005

About Moi!

I am totally plaigarizing this idea from another blog of a fellow Oregonian. But I thought it was cool. So here I go?

10 years ago I...
was 19 years old
was in my second year of College
a brand new believer
lived in Corvallis Oregon
loved my boyfriend who is now my husband of 8.5 years

5 years ago I...
was 24 years old
was a brand new mom to my first child
lived in hicksville usa, aka Stayton, oregon
Was a stay-at-home-mom

1 year ago I...
was 28 years old.
was a mom of a 4 & 2 year old
still a stay at home mom
selling our first home :(
wanted to be a writer

Yesterday I...
went to a new church for the second time
had family over for dinner
relived my time in Israel
Ate some fattening ice cream
vowed to go a diet

5 snacks I enjoy:
dates
kid clif bars
graham crackers w/milk
fruity pebbles
mochas

5 songs I know all the words to:
River by Garth Brooks
The National Anthem
As The Deer
We Cry Holy
Happy Birthday To You

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
By a house in the Country with a bit of acerage
Pay for Calvary Corvallis' new church
Buy a Bulldog
Go on a Vacation!!
Send my cousin to Italy and all the places she dreams to go

5 places I would run away to:
The little kibbutz I stayed at on the Sea of Galilee
Many places in Israel
Corvallis Or (what?)
Maine
A place with a view, privacy, a hammock, quiet, books, journals, and some soft worship music to play when I want to.

5 things I would never wear:
a bikini (yikes)
black socks with shorts
midriff bearing shirts
white after Labor Day
?
5 favorite TV shows:
ER
The Biggest Loser
Survivor
The Apprentice
The Amazing Race

5 Worst habits:
biting my nails
sugar
biting the inside of my mouth (ouch)
trying to be funny and witty
talking to myself

5 biggest joys:
Jesus/Time with Him/His presence etc. etc. etc
My Husband
My Children
Fellowship
Peaceful Spirit

Favorite toys:
Computer and CD player

5 fictional characters I would date:
None Except maybe Johnny Bravo because he's so manly and if we got married we could live with his "mama".

Oh Doctor Willllllsooooon

Just found out today, after 5 years, that my childrens' pediatrician is a Christian. I was really excited about that. I found myself praying after the appointment...Lord show me the other Christians in my life that I don't know of. I just have this vision in my mind of all Christians uniting and being one. No more divisions, denominations, boundaries...but just one unit praising God together, taking care of eachother, helping, protecting, fighting the spiritual battle for one another, and running the race together. That would be cool.

Hospitality

Last night we hosted a dinner for my sis-in-law and her husband. We were celebrating both their birthdays. It was fun. I was a bit dissappointed because their oldes daughter couldn't make it. But she's off riding horses...a 7 year olds dream. So I totally understood.

I made yummy spaghetti. I'm impressed by myself sometimes when I actually try and cook. It turns out well. Of course some may think spaghetti is a no brainer but compared to just noodles and sauce out of a jar this was really good. I won't go into details and I'm no Rachel Rae or Ray? (can't remember) but I thought it was quite yummy.

Then afterward we ate icecream and I showed my sis-in-law my Israel pics. And that's a whole other blog.

The kids had an awesome time.

We used to have ppl over a lot more than we have lately and it felt good to do it again. I told my husband hey lets do again next weekend becaause it's our other sis-in-laws birthday. Hopefully we do. We like entertaining...we might also host the UFC fight coming up too.. . if we have the money.

Ciao, Adios, Auf Wiedersehen,

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Name Change

I changed the name of my blog. I read some really inspiring blogs last night. It got me thinking about my blog and my life for that matter. Do I want to take away or add to people's lives? Do I want to add negatively or postively. I chose to add and to add positively.

So my site might not be the most profound on the internet but my hope, for anyone who reads it, is that they can take away something positive. That they will come away blessed rather than contaminated in some horrible way.

I want my life to reflect that as well. God has surfaced many ugly things in my life lately. I thank Him though because I asked Him to do this thus He's answering my prayer. I wanted to know the depths of my wickedness apart from Him, how I can be when left to myself--my sinful, selfish self.

I know that once I accepted Jesus I became a new creation and received a new heart but I wanted to know all that He saved me from. All the deep ingrained selfish ways that were apart of me as a result of living 19 years without His influence in my life. When I came to believe in Jesus I started to change my ways/He changed my heart... but much of it was actions that unbeknownst to me were birthed from a selfish independant self. This self is what He's revealing to me in a very gentle yet very real way.

It's been hard, humbling, but oh so rewarding. It's made me cherish His grace and mercy so much more than I ever have. I've been more grateful for what Christ has done for me on the cross. I've wanted His spirit, His power, His will more for my life than ever. I know what I'm capable of and I want less of me and more of Him.

I'm thankful for my new heart. I'm learning to renew my mind and take care of my heart. I'm learning why I need to take careful consideration about what I let into my ears, eyes, mind, and heart. I'm desiring obedience out of myself more than I ever had. I want to be Jesus's disciple and die to myself.

Dying to myself had been hard. It doesn't come easily. Discipline was never something I grew up with nor practiced. I did things because I had to and if I wanted to give up I usually did. I'm lazy for the most part and used to getting my way. But I'm willing to walk this road so that Christ is truly Lord of my Life.

Lord, make me more like you!!

~GH

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Our New Bed

We finally got our bed!!!!! After eight and one half years of marriage we have our first new bed and new mattress. It's soooo nice!!

History of our bed situation.

First married--double size futon

After one year of marriage we brought the mattress (and headboard and frame) from my parents home that I used in high school. Nice, expensive, nearly new mattress....flew out the back of the moving truck my husband was driving {it cleared a semi and i ran over it} on our way to our new apt.

So being the poor college students we were we bought a $300 mattress...

Had that for the next 4 years. I got pregnant, gained 40 or so pounds (but who's counting), my husband would "sink" in the middle of it. I was already bigger than him before pregnancy. So then we traded back and forth on the old faithful futon which we were using as a couch.

Next we moved and ended up using a **used** king size, warped mattress from the family of my sister-in-law's husband. Used that for 3 years. We actually enjoyed the king-sized-ness of it.

Next we moved again...trashed that mattress and went back to the futon again. Slept on that for 9 months...

And things brings us to the NOW! Here we are ... our new bed. Finally. It's espresso finish wood with a headboard and a footboard... and then the mattress that has to be at least 2 feet thick. We have to do a little "hop" to get UP on our bed. It's so cool!!!!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I've got the POWER

I've got the power of God at work in me!!! I've walked through the door and I'm standing in Grace. The God of the universe is my Father and I'm his princess!! I have received a new heart. Whom shall I fear?